"When I'm Busy"

"Wake Up Alone" Lioness: Hidden Treasures By Amy Winehouse see related

It's been awhile. I'm glad to look back on all ive written though, it's funny to see how I've matured and dealt with things.

I like that I had a laissez-faire disposition, and didn't really let things get to me. I kinda like the way that sounds right now.

Life hasn't gone the way I would have like it to go. And I don't know how I feel about becoming so cynical...lol
I think I should start looking forward to transferring to a different University, I like Umass Boston, but I'm looking for something more, i'm always looking for something more.

If it isn't too much to ask, I think I would like to vent some more about a certain someone.

So,

There's this boy. And I don't know what's going on. As much as I try to put up a very hard exterior, I can't help but find something to attach myself with. Sometimes, I feel so carefree when i'm with him...I don't want to sound dramatic, but I enjoy our little promenades around Boston, I feel like i"m somwhere across the world, I am unreachable(as much as I hate to admit it) when i'm with him.
But I dont know what to think about him at all, at first, I thought we were both on the same page, essentially. Now, I dont know if I'm just some kind of pastime or a girl who happen to reciprocate his attention, which isn't the best of feelings.Truthfully, I don't want to get hurt. And because of his age, and his disposition, I feel that coming out wounded is a real option.
Maybe, it might be my dislike towards uncertainty, I don't like not knowing where we stand. It's a little disheartening that I put all this time and effort into a person, and it leading up to nothing, makes me feel foolish. In a sense, I hope that my "relationship", let's call it an interaction, with him is over for good...lol Sometimes I feel that we dig this huge hole, and make ourselves believe that he's the only one for you, when really i'm only 19, they'll be plenty more. But I will say, I would like to play some type of integral part in his life. This talk is very foolish.

I only hope in the end that he's worth all this uncertainty. I hope.

Wait..What?

Im soooo happy with all these snowdays :]!!!!!!!

it's been such a long time since i've posted, but i joined the dark side and gone to tumblr, hahahaha.
i love it it's a really cool blog and you should check me out....because I have no friends there....(loser)

But I am defintely keeping this blog over college and all that shizz.

And speaking about that, I've sent everything in already:
Now I just have to wait.....grrr.

Waiting, i'm not very good at that....I'm so anxious to know already where i'll be going!

More News:

I've applied to go to a Art Summer School..in wait for it,

San Francisco, I'm soooo excited, but the only way I can afford to go is if I get a scholarship :[,

*i'm keeping my fingers crossed for both(college and the summer)*

"All art is autobiographical. The pearl is the oyster's autobiography."

Fellini

*sighs*

it's been a long time since I've posted.....

But anyways, Not much has changed. I';ve been incredibly busy!!! Busy,Busy, Busy!!!

However, today I watched a movie that I was (literally) DYING to see:

TANGLED!!!  yes, the new disney movie, hehe.

It was awesome!! I cried like a million times :), well after the movies I went straight to Deviant art!(looking for FanARt of course)

and it just got me thinking, what if school wasn't such a big part of me, and that I just gave myself away to my art. I mean I don't regret focusing so much on school, but because of that, i'm not doing art at all...... and it was a little depressing, Like making movies and drawing whatever I imagine is like a secret dream of mind, and plus it's fun...so idk I guess I just wanted to write about that.

Hopefully after all this college app. such is over I can flood myself with art, :D!

(btw, Idk why I took English AP)

"I never think of the future. It comes soon enough."
einstein.

Currently She Wolf: Deluxe Edition (CD & DVD) Gitana see related

Some Change

Bien Estampadas

Long time no talk; I just didn't have anything to say-really
I was kinda over the 'over-depressed, hate my life post' lol

Still, I miss Jap-town like CRAZYYYYYY
I miss my jap buddies like CRAZYYYY
yup, i am addicted.

So, some new news:
The year is almost over :]
I've applied to an exchange program:
yessssssss, Please cross your fingers for me!!!!!!!

We'll see what the future holds.

Now, there's this guy
but it's he's so out-of-my-league
agewise, haha

but I won't bored you guys with that.
I CANNIT wait for this year to end!! I hate almost all my teachers, and the people in my classes aren't helping!!!
It's wicked annoying.
(I kept my exchange as the tunnel at the end!!!)

Let's keep it short and simple; I hope to write about what happens in April/May!!(for the studying abroud hehe)

I'll leave you guys(my two readers) with a line from a poem I was forced to write:

"His lies shot you down.

But your still living."