| | idk, today was a really bad day
like i seriously feel like dropping out of school, and working forever..
The situation itself is stupid: My mom is getting charged $900, for my phone bill, and I feel stupid and incompetent and idiotic, and just plain fucking stupid.
I mean, how is she going to get that money?? like she doesnt work in the summer, and I barely make $60 each month..and now with this trip to japan,
everything seems wrong; I dont care for my phone, I just care about the money.
I really wish i could help her, but what I am suppose to do? Sell weed, like prostitute myself? Like WTF
I feel, like everyone, right now..like why so many people drop out or why people are always so tired, and cranky and mad..it's because of this money.
However, with that said.. I still dont kno why she yelled at me, and blamed me for it?...was that going to fix the problem??
I know i'm the cause, it's bad enough..but what did she expect me to do? I have no money i go to school everyday and do my work , that's it...
idk, i just been crying since i found out for some reason..idk why
and this trip and my crush seem so stupid since, nothing that I'm doing is paying off..
I still feel like crying; and right now all I wanna do is fly to japan and breath...like actually feel happy
like right now, i really wanna go there..and just let go:
not have to worry about anyone
or anything
no money
no drama
just living....actually
living
:D
(makes me wanna smile)
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| | Posted 5/26/2009 8:31 PM - 5 Views - 2 eProps - 1 Comment
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